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DA GIRL ♥
Jasmine ♥
:D
04 Oct
Short
Skinny
Long black and brownish hair
Small eyes
Big Nose
Simply Ugly
Attitude
Narcissistic
Capricious
Extrovert
Sensitive
Cynical
Canossa Convent Primary
Saint Anthony Canossian Convent
NYP Finance Services(Graduated)
SIM - Banking and Finance (Part time UOL)
[一个人生活]
Total Visits since 01 Mar 2009:
HER LURFES ♥
HIM ; Lawrence aka Fatty Tan ♥
Shopping
Dolling Up
KTV
Singing
Travelling
Taking pictures
Listening to Music
Chill out
Sleeping
Slacking
Friends: Sharon, Julia, Bei boy, Jasmine Tan, Linda, Ah An, Clara, Neth, Roswina, Max, Pal, Suriani, Jenny bf, Reagan, Yashi, Jiang Hao, Jeffrey, Sandy, Sze Ping, Elaine, Lay Eng, Celine, Jessie, Annie
Family
My bday(04 Oct; pressie please!)
Valentine(14 Feb)
Pink
White
Drinks: Jasmine Green Tea, Coke, Red Bull, Lemon Tea, Mango Juice
Fruits: Mango, Honey Dew, Grapes, Apple, Strawberries, Banana, Guava with LOTS oF Pulm Powder
Food: bEef stEak, ScallOp, crAb, lObster, PraWn, chEese fRies, Salted Popcorn with LOTS of Butter, Cup corn with LOTS oF Butter, MOS Burger, Minestrone Soup, Teriyaki Chicken burger, KFC Drumsticks, Long John, Onion Ring
Snacks: KinDer bReunO, Super Ring, Lays
HATES
Red Beans/Green Beans
PaPaya
WaterMelon
Root Beer
Hor Fun
Loh Mee
Bastards & Flirts
Bitches & Sluts
Attention Seekers
Childishness
Egoistic, Arrogant, Supercilious People
Attitude Problem
Myself
HER WANTS ♥
-more dresses, more skirts, more tops-
-LV Damier Neverfull and Chanel Bag-
-$$$ and more $$$-
-IPL legs and hands-
-Go DRX Clinic-
-repair aircon-
-renovate room-
-Travel to Australia, US, Europe and Japan. Go Taiwan again-
New Resolution:
1) Learn to cook
2) Punctual
3) Sleep early
4) Exercise
5) Save up
6) Bring mummy and sister out more often
7) Slim down
8) Complete my degree
HER MEMORIES ♥
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人生就是为了找寻爱的过程，每个人的人生都要找到四个人。 第一个是自己, 第二个是你最爱的人， 第三个是最爱你的人， 第四个是共度一生的人. 首先会遇到你最爱的人，然後体会到爱的感觉； 因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人； 当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的， 也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。 但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人； 你最爱的，往往没有选择你； 最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的； 而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的， 只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。 你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？ 没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你， 可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了， 他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你； 同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你 。 当一个人不爱你要离开你， 你要问自己还爱不爱他， 如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开； 如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐， 希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止， 你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了， 而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？ 爱不是占有， 你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里， 但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。 换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有， 让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆， 如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子─爱他的好，也爱他的坏： 爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点， 绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子， 万一变不成就不爱他了。 真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的， 你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪著你； 真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。 毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得； 分开是一种必然的考验， 如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输， 真爱是不会变成怨恨的。 两人在谈情说爱的时候， 最喜欢叫对方发誓，许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓， 就是因为我们不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人， 而这些山盟海誓又很不切实际： 海枯石烂、地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱! 明知道海不会枯、石不会烂、地不会老、天不会荒； 就算会，也活不到那时候。 许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言， 最好是承诺做不到的事， 反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧， 请记住：”不可能实现的诺言最动人” 在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套； 讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。 你呢？找到了第几个？ 茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？
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DARLINKS ♥
CHATTERBOX ♥
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CREDITS ♥
designer- X pictures- X
brushes- XXX
hosts- XX
fonts- X
for the brushes part , i try to credit as much as i can .
for those things i got from deviantart , i really cannot remember e poster of e pic or brushes . sorry about that . =)
4/21/2010 ♥
Another chance to rekindle those feelings,
another chance to fail the relationship.
都董了
有些事过了永远找不回来. Tried to rekindle that feeling we once let it slipped away through our fingers, yet we failed to.
I believe since you walk away from me that day, everything just stopped at our quarrels. We didn't had a chance to end the relationship with a proper reason, a proper ending.
So, guess we finally said what we wanted to say to one another. And we finally can end it nicely now.
I'm sure we have clearer views on what we want now.
Labels: thoughts
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
2/23/2010 ♥
人常常说被爱是幸福. 你们是站在旁观者的角度去判断,还是那个被爱的人的角度呢?
应为那个被爱的人一点都不幸福.
Labels: thoughts
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/07/2008 ♥
是不是人长大了只后，
烦恼越来越多，
而快乐的日子也越来越少了呢？？？
there's so many things that happened and i'm trying very hard to cope with this sudden changes.
tough, but i guess thats fate and reality which i cant help but to accept.
sometimes i'm really unhappy,
i really feel like pouring out what i feel inside.
but who?
who can i confide in?
moreover, when i'm unhappy i merely hate talking to anyone.
and even so...
there's really no use telling anyone
since no one can really do much to help me,
and i really dont wish to be a burden to anyone.
and everyone has different perspective, different views,
who would truly understand me?
therefore gradually, i thought the best way is to start keeping things to myself.
i guess i feel better writing them down.
i dont need any comment.
i really just feel like writing out so i may feel relief a little.
recently, i feel so reluctant to do anything.
to go anywhere.
i really dont know what i should do.
i feel so lost.
in the past,
when i'm unhappy
i blog. but now i'm to busy to do so.
in the past,
when i'm unhappy,
retail therapy is the best way to cure.
but now, i can't anymore.
i'm so so tied.
daddy is not around to give me $ anymore.
things are not the same anymore.
i know i'm big enough and working.
but i'm just too dependant on daddy.
blame me.
i really dont need anyone's help and i don't like to.
i merely want to recover what's rightfully mine.
i know there's reason as to why its not possible.
but i'm just disappointed by the empty promises over and over again.
and i couldnt fathom why in such situation,
things still have to be such.
sometimes i'm really so upset.
but why, why do people not understand?
do they need me to explain to them exactly why when things are so apparent?
and i really hates explanation, since its not my obligation when i feel things are obvious.
antagonizing!
i really miss my daddy
with daddy around i have everything i want.
but now its never the same.
为什么我最爱的人不能在我身边
its been a 2 months and 1 day since this thing happen.
its been almost 1 month since daddy is aways.
but
sometimes i still don understand why.
why things have to happen this way.
i keep asking myself.
i dont know why.
no body likes to be unhappy.
no body likes their life to be miserable.
but why everything has to come at the same time.
i really cant breathe,
and i dont think i'm coping well enough.
i really dont want people around me to worry.
and i know life has to carry on.
but i'm really upset, depress, despair,
but why do i have to put up a front that i'm alright.
why do i have to suppress my feelings?
i know i still have friends around who really cares for me.
they lend me a listening ear.
try their best to be around.
but everyone support is up to a limit.
and like i say i hate to be a burden to anyone.
i dont know
i really dont know what i should do.
i'm so lost. so stuck.
life just sucks to the core.
i wonder.
i wonder how long this unhappiness will last...
Labels: thoughts
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
5/27/2008 ♥
didn't go out after work today. having a bad headache.
today is tuesday. another 3 more working days to weekend.
anticipating.
saturday going to huizhen's birthday.
sunday going to celebrate dad's birthday.
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there are things that kept running in my mind repeatedly.
kept trying to ask myself and finding the real reason for this breakup.
it was true that i wanted to give up this relationship.
but later on i gave this relationship another chance despite his bad attitude and the way he treated me before, during and after the trip.
i was taking risk i thought.
leopard never changes its spot. guys never change; you can only lower your expectation...
but it was because of love.
the special feelings that not everyone is able to give.
we had many quarrels.
but still i planned to go over there to be with him.
i am taking risk again.
but for him i guess its worth the try.
i just hope things will get better when we're both at the same place.
but i had to give up my everything.
but it was ok.
because i wanted him more than what i have here.
because he is more than everything.
love is too irony to explain.
握得太紧，又怕透不了气。
握的太松，却又怕失去。
someone told me that it is not because we're not suitable,
but its because we love each other too much. thats why we're quarreling over minor things.
over everything.
because we cared.
because we were afraid to lose.
(is this true? i am not sure...)
but now we still ended up apart.
i was the one giving this relationship another chance, and enduring all the hurt i felt, yet because of friendster he initiated the breakup.
but friendster is really a small thing. a really stupid thing to quarrel over.
so...
i really don't know why.
and things had gone so bad that we don't even talk anymore.
not even as a friend.
maybe he just want it to be this way.
so it doesn't really matter whose fault is it anyway...
在爱情里没有谁对谁错， 只有谁不够珍惜谁。
love can make one feel very blissful.
so blissfully in love.
but on the other hand.
it really hurts ALOT.
these 20+ years
after so many relationship i've been through;
so many passerbys.
i've learn that not everyone that come by is able to give you that kinda of special feeling.
在这世上能相遇和相爱是一件很难得也很奇妙的事。是一种缘分。所以我很珍惜。
but in every relationship things will never be that perfect and wonderful.
there are many ups and downs.
but i believe a strong relationship is able to withstand all these obstacles.
both parties must treasure one another and put in effort together to work out the relatioship.
and in this case we failed.
well. since things have turn out this way.
the only thing we can do now is MOVE ON.
幸福的开始就是放手。
and people says 你结婚的那一个往往不会是你最爱的。
and this is true...
anyway not hurrying for another relationship and since its not easy to have that feeling
爱要耐心等待, 仔细寻找, 感觉很重要
so let nature take its course ya.
i do not want to rush into another relationship and i'm definitely not ready.
缘分终究会找到自己主人。
but currently;
im still so hurt and so so upset.
but well. . .
时间可以让你爱上一个人， 也可一让你忘记他。
只不过是一下下的痛ya :)
Zhen Shi - Zhang Hui Mei
Labels: thoughts
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/16/2007 ♥
i know i'm a coward
i like to escape reality...
sometimes...
i wish i can sleep and never wake up again...
and...
i wonder what will things be if i'm no longer around.
how will i be remembered in people's life?
will i be always remembered?
have my existence really meant something to anyone?
have i ever made any impact on someone's life before?
Labels: thoughts
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]