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DA GIRL ♥
Jasmine ♥
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04 Oct
Short
Skinny
Long black and brownish hair
Small eyes
Big Nose
Simply Ugly
Attitude
Narcissistic
Capricious
Extrovert
Sensitive
Cynical
Canossa Convent Primary
Saint Anthony Canossian Convent
NYP Finance Services(Graduated)
SIM - Banking and Finance (Part time UOL)
[一个人生活]
Total Visits since 01 Mar 2009:
HER LURFES ♥
HIM ; Lawrence aka Fatty Tan ♥
Shopping
Dolling Up
KTV
Singing
Travelling
Taking pictures
Listening to Music
Chill out
Sleeping
Slacking
Friends: Sharon, Julia, Bei boy, Jasmine Tan, Linda, Ah An, Clara, Neth, Roswina, Max, Pal, Suriani, Jenny bf, Reagan, Yashi, Jiang Hao, Jeffrey, Sandy, Sze Ping, Elaine, Lay Eng, Celine, Jessie, Annie
Family
My bday(04 Oct; pressie please!)
Valentine(14 Feb)
Pink
White
Drinks: Jasmine Green Tea, Coke, Red Bull, Lemon Tea, Mango Juice
Fruits: Mango, Honey Dew, Grapes, Apple, Strawberries, Banana, Guava with LOTS oF Pulm Powder
Food: bEef stEak, ScallOp, crAb, lObster, PraWn, chEese fRies, Salted Popcorn with LOTS of Butter, Cup corn with LOTS oF Butter, MOS Burger, Minestrone Soup, Teriyaki Chicken burger, KFC Drumsticks, Long John, Onion Ring
Snacks: KinDer bReunO, Super Ring, Lays
HATES
Red Beans/Green Beans
PaPaya
WaterMelon
Root Beer
Hor Fun
Loh Mee
Bastards & Flirts
Bitches & Sluts
Attention Seekers
Childishness
Egoistic, Arrogant, Supercilious People
Attitude Problem
Myself
HER WANTS ♥
-more dresses, more skirts, more tops-
-LV Damier Neverfull and Chanel Bag-
-$$$ and more $$$-
-IPL legs and hands-
-Go DRX Clinic-
-repair aircon-
-renovate room-
-Travel to Australia, US, Europe and Japan. Go Taiwan again-
New Resolution:
1) Learn to cook
2) Punctual
3) Sleep early
4) Exercise
5) Save up
6) Bring mummy and sister out more often
7) Slim down
8) Complete my degree
HER MEMORIES ♥
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人生就是为了找寻爱的过程，每个人的人生都要找到四个人。 第一个是自己, 第二个是你最爱的人， 第三个是最爱你的人， 第四个是共度一生的人. 首先会遇到你最爱的人，然後体会到爱的感觉； 因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人； 当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的， 也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。 但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人； 你最爱的，往往没有选择你； 最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的； 而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的， 只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。 你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？ 没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你， 可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了， 他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你； 同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你 。 当一个人不爱你要离开你， 你要问自己还爱不爱他， 如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开； 如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐， 希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止， 你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了， 而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？ 爱不是占有， 你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里， 但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。 换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有， 让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆， 如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子─爱他的好，也爱他的坏： 爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点， 绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子， 万一变不成就不爱他了。 真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的， 你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪著你； 真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。 毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得； 分开是一种必然的考验， 如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输， 真爱是不会变成怨恨的。 两人在谈情说爱的时候， 最喜欢叫对方发誓，许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓， 就是因为我们不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人， 而这些山盟海誓又很不切实际： 海枯石烂、地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱! 明知道海不会枯、石不会烂、地不会老、天不会荒； 就算会，也活不到那时候。 许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言， 最好是承诺做不到的事， 反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧， 请记住：”不可能实现的诺言最动人” 在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套； 讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。 你呢？找到了第几个？ 茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？
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designer- X pictures- X
brushes- XXX
hosts- XX
fonts- X
for the brushes part , i try to credit as much as i can .
for those things i got from deviantart , i really cannot remember e poster of e pic or brushes . sorry about that . =)
9/29/2004 ♥
tat's my toy. my piggy pig!~ i put @ d3arie's bed. so at night when its dark, i can press its stomach for light!! keke...
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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d3arie & me @ tOa payOh kbOx... taken on monday
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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me @ tOa payOh kbOx... taken on monday
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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looks like i'm strangling it... LOLX
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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me and mickey again~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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me and mickey (d3arie's dog) . . . very naughty dog~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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another pic on sunday @ grandma's bday~ had dinner @ bedok kopi tiam there with my whole family~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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last sunday @ grandma's bday~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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d3arie didn't go work 2day. he went to tan tock seng to see doctor le. i waiting for him to come back now... feel bored again...
yesterday went Far East Plaza... bought to cotton top. 1 yellow and 1 white. keke... love shopping sia!!! wanna shop everyday of my life if i m damn rich la... the nxt thing i wanna buy is more dolly shoes and 77th street top~!~! anyway, hope my parents or whoever can gif me $ on my bday as my bday gift, so i can go shop again... or else muz wait till i save up enough $$$. will be a long time worx... =( *sad*
things i wanna do 2day: (wed)
- wash hamster cage
- house work
tat's all for 2day. coz actually wanna go watch resident evil de. but not yet out... muz wait for tml worx... ai ya~ sianz le... but tml i meeting sharon. so can't watch tml. friday then can watch le...
things i wanna do tml: (thurs)
- meet sharon teach her maths
- go shopping with Sharon @ Far East Plaza
- go back d3arie's house
things i wanna do on (fri)
- watch resident evil
shit, its getting nearer to next week and my sch will starts... and it also means its nearer to my bday le!!!! i dunch wanna go to sch. coz i got presentation. but yet i want it to come coz its my bday!!! awwww... need to go sch on my bday. its so sucky!!! and i got exam presentation on tat day. must wear formal!!! its all ruined! my bday!!!! suck la!~! sch will end at 6pm. what can i do after tat? *hmph* =( i dunch care, i wanna eat steam boat!!! at the least! *hpmph* hpmph* hpmph************** =~~~~~(
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/28/2004 ♥
jUz wOke up at 9+am. then had been checking mail and using frenster all the way till now. hmm... its still very early right now. i didn't know why i woke up this early man. its kinda of boring. coz d3arie is not at home and i'm very bored here right now!can't stand the boredom.
anyway, yesterday went toa payoh kbox with d3arie and his mummy. sang frm 6pm to 9pm. and was pretty obvious that i sang most of the time~ kaka... muz understand la, i luv singing mah!!! had a great time! actually wanted to go eat tim sum in the morning de. but it was raining quite heavily when we woke up in the morning. therefore, cancelled the plan of eating tim sum. then his mummy asked us if we wanna go eat in a restaurant in the evening or go kbox. and as usual, d3arie would choose to go kbox. coz can sing and he can drink too! his favourite mah, drinking. hai~ he's like a 'jiu gui'.
things i gonna do today:
12pm - do some housework
2pm - bath
2:30pm - slack
4:30pm - change clothes and prepare to go out
5:30pm - go take bus
6pm - reach d3arie working place
6:01pm - see d3arie walking out of the police station (his work place)
6:10pm - wait for bus go Far East
6:45pm - @ Far East
7pm - Makan
7:30pm - Shop!!! yEa!!!
9:30pm - Leave Far East for d3arie's house
10pm - Reach dearie's house
10:01pm - Use computer
10:45pm - Clean fish tank and hamster cage
11:45pm - Sleep
I think this is what i gonna do la, but dunch noe will be exactly the same or not la.
hey omg, i just got a mosquito bite on my feet! and it itch like hell now!!! gotto scatch...bb~~ =)
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/25/2004 ♥
just finish watching the movie, '' new police story''... its a very nice show!!!! comedy + sad + action movie!~ worth watching. 2hrs + show. went shaw plaza watch wif d3arie and kk... was full house norhx. we watched the 12am show. i also wanna watch resident evil !!! nowadays got many nice movie worx~! hai~, me all wanna watch!!! keke... nxt week 1 week block leave then monday my bday le!!! kakaka... so excited. and wanna go shopping nxt week~ and celebrate my bday~ *hee* presents presents presents! i want presents!!! *geez*
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/18/2004 ♥
juz came back from the clinic. and ate some bread i bought after seeing the doctor. tis afternoon fever shot up to 39.1. after tat i took 2 panadols again. then went go slp... i told d3arie not to on the aircon. but he insisted to on, coz he said he's feeling terribly hot. can see from the his pillow to. Half wet coz of his perspire. then when i wake up. the fever sort of came back. before i went down to the doctor my temperature was 38.1 degree. @ the clinic was 38.4 degree. N now its 38.9 degree. Ok la, i shall end here. going to take my medication le... i hope i recover soon. coz attachment max can take 10 days MC, over the 6 months. Then leave can only take 10 hours lor! awww.... my Mc already 9 days. and leave only left 1 hour. I cant afford to take anymore leh... coz attachment till november! omg! -_-!!! **faint!**
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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hmm...just woke up~ sian sia... sick sick sick... I think i had fever since thurs and i didnt realise. I tot was just normal headache. Till yesterday, i really cant take the headache man. so i took thermometer to measure my temperature. omg, it was 38.5 degree. No wander!~ then later i went to d3arie house to stay mah. At his house i took 2 panad0ls. then i measure my temperature again. It shot up to 38.8 degree. I got scared. I just went to his room. Off the aircon and cover myself with blanket. When i woke up about 1 hour later. My fever recovered. Phew... then after tat d3arie buy ba zhang(dumplings) for me to eat. then we slept @ 1+am. in the middle of my sleep @ 5+am. I felt cold again, even after covering the blanket. then i touch my head. its hot again. I woke d3arie up. Ask him to touch my head if its hot or not. He told me its not very hot, then he went back to sleep again. But i insisted tat he go wash the thermometer for me to measure my temperature. after measuring, it was 38.5 degree again. Then i told him, who say not hot, 38.5 still tell me not hot. ai ya. dunch noe him la! idiot! i think he just wanna sleep tats why he told me that. Anyway, after measuring, i asked him to go refill my water bottle and get me 2 more panadols. and he took la. After eating, went back to sleep again. till now norhx! d3arie still sleeping norhx. he said he wanted to wake up early to help his parents in their stall. then now still sleeping. fark la. i go wake him up now. bb!!!
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/17/2004 ♥
Actually many things had happen within these couples of days. In fact, I hate to go home. If I have a choice, I wanna stay at d3arie’s house. But… I rather see my sister everyday then seeing that XXX girl. She really annoying and I detest her farking much! I JUST HATE THE SIGHT OF HER!!!
She damn thick skin norhx. People don’t like her, she still got the checks to come up so frequently. Wtf is fate man? I think its just Alfred being silly. This kinda of girl, is shit to me la. I don’t know what she treats him as. When she don’t want him, she just dumped him aside. When she feels like looking up for him, she comes to look for him. Hao ma bu chi hui tou chao. But afraid don’t seems to understand anything about it la. Anyway, we shall see what will happen to him again. I really doubt the relationship. I heard from Ah bee that one of his auntie saw Alfred’s handphone sms the other time (quite long ago). The message means something like, only I can break with you. You cannot break with me. I’m sure that this is not a message sent out by Alfred. I almost sure that it was an inbox message. And who the hell send it? I need not say more. After she broke off with Alfred, I see him with 2 other guys before. One was from her school, and the other was one of Alfred’s friends. I bet the guy from their school knew Alfred too. That sucks man! Where got girl so buai hiao bai 1 norhx. Break with a guy, then stead with the guy’s friend. Then know no boyfriend then go find Alfred back. She treat him as what sia? Spare tyre? I know I’m in no position to say all this. But do you think I care. This is how I feel, and most importantly this is my blog! If you don’t like it, farking get out. She not shy meh? People parents know that you broke off with their son. And now you still got the checks to come up and face his parents. **Pui** .Kns… When she got other boyfriend that time, she still comes up to Alfred’s house norhx. Lie on his lap to watch tv. Slut? Yea, I don’t doubt it.
I shall tell you every incident that had happen.
1st incident: (the sms that I talk about just now).
2nd incident: When she was with Alfred. She was talking about her stickers for nails. Then I said ‘oh you also have ar.’ Then she was like, ‘my 1 different from yours leh, my 1 got pop out 1, more expensive than those normal ones’). What she mean by that sia?
3rd incident: She not with Alfred anymore. But everytime stills come up people’s house. Then normally Alfred doesn’t just open the Martel to drink for no reason. I bet is the girl who asked him to pour some out for her. Then they put the cup so near to the edge of the refrigerator, then later when I opened the fridge, the cup dropped on the floor, and obviously the alcohol poured on the floor. She just stayed still at the position she was at. (lying on Alfred’s lap, watching tv). The cup was hers ok! And she just did nothing and smiled at me. Fark la! What kind of attitude was that?
4th incident: She damn buai hiao bai norhx, frenster nick put what, baby jO, baObei jO, then recently just put Unique. Omg!~ What makes her thinks she’s unique. And the name she’s giving herself makes my hair stands. Er xin norhx. I think she should just put typical, what unique. It’s totally opposite.
5th incident: She wrote she is a good drinker. She wrote it like, ‘I can hold my liquor quite well worx, don’t try to guan zhui wo worx.’ Wah, knns. She’s really 1 bad drinker lor. She still dares to post she very good at drinking. What kind of skin she have man! Thick skin! Thicker than the elephant! Its not that we don’t know that she doesn’t know how to drink and I claim that she’s a bad drinker without any prove. I’m not the only 1 that say that she’s a bad drinker. Even Adam’s mummy and Ah bee (Adam’s cousin) told me that she’s such a bad drinker. Both told me that during New Year the other time, when she’s already not with Alfred, she go visiting with him together @ his family’s house. Then after visiting, went kbox. The big big room, cause one of his cousin’s bday. Then they really opened many bottles of Martel. Me and d3arie went back early, so I didn’t know she was drank. Adam’s mummy told me ‘ta dou bu ke yi he de, na tian ah kien shen ri, ta he liang bei jui zui le.’ (she was saying, she drank two cups only she drank le)… Ah bee told me exactly the same thing too. Ah bee didn’t like her too!~ Me and Ah bee kinda of good friends, so we talked about some stuffs together de. Then got 1 time, Adam’s Mummy’s birthday. Then we went to Lot 1(Chua Chu Kang) NTUC pub to drink. Opened Martel too. Then the same thing happe la, she was drank again. It was so obvious. Then she still dared to stand up and dance lor. Adam’s mummy asked me ‘why I don’t wanna dance. Tat girl also dancing mah.’ Then I was like thinking, ‘ OMG, if I dance until so ugly like her, I don’t even dare to stand up and dance lor!’. So paiseh norhx. People who are buai paiseh dare la. Obviously! If people already know she can’t drink, she still got the checks to post up sia!!! HAHA. What a joke! Anyway, I don’t mean I can drink very well la. Don’t get me wrong!
6th incident: She’ still not officially with Alfred yet. Came up his house and then treat the house as if it’s hers. Just sat on the sofa and put her legs up on the whole sofa. She sits like that, how she expects other people to sit. Moreover, its not her house lor, and she sit until like that.
7th incident: During her one week secondary school holidays, after she patched up with Alfred. Then later she kept on staying at his house norhx. As I posted up before, I moved to their house le… Then I usually do housework there mah. Because I think its like very bad and rude not to do anything when you are staying at someone’s house. So I washed the clothes, hung the clothes, iron only my boyfriend, Adam and my own clothes. Wash all the dishes. Clean my boyfriend’s room and stuffs. Ever since the day she stayed there, she didn’t do anything. Just sleep, eat and play games. And did nothing else! Ok la, she bath then her towel and shorts I washed together la. Don’t mind. But then she drink soft drinks she never even wash the cups lor. And use so many different cups. Then the ice was all used up. She just put the thing at the basin. WTF? She doesn’t know how to refill meh? Siao one! So lazy! And buai paiseh norhx. Then d3arie tat time go tell Alfred and her, ‘after drinking remember to wash the cups!’. Then they didn’t reply him. End up also I washed the cups lor. There was once, she bought Menstruation Pad. Then she just put in on the table. Where all the canned food and food was lying on the same table. I still need to ask ‘whose pads is this?’. Then Alfred say ‘oh, its her’s!’. Omg, she still needs Alfred to bring into the room for her norhx. What is this? She thinks she princess ar?
Wtf, I not her maid leh! She’s not even my friend. Why must I do all this shit for her? Asshole! I rather go back and help my sisters and family do housework lor. I rather face my sister everyday than facing her everyday lor.
8th incident: That day morning, wanna go school. Early in the morning see her le lor! Then after seeing her I just felt very irritated. Alfred wasn’t at home. He went down to help his parents in the stall. Then he just leaves that girl and 2 other friends @ home norhx! WTF? She thinks that 1 her house ar? BUAI HIAO BAI...BUAI PAISEH !!! Then Alfred and his mama stayed in the same room mah. Then can’t be the 3 of them sleep in the same bed right? Cause their room using the double deck bed. Then his mother sleeping at the lower one, which is the queen size bed. Then the 1 on top belongs to Alfred’s one. And it was a single size bed. Can’t be every 1 sleep there right? WTF, you stay people’s house and sleep on their parents’ bed? BOH KA SI ~!!!
Aiya, there’s really too much to say about her! Really so detesting to see her! It’s such torment to see her everyday! I just wish she would never appear in front of me ever again! Shoo off man!
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
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Hai ~ I really don’t know what to say to Roswina… It’s been many days, she’s still seems very moody and sad. I understands how she feels, but I don’t know what should I say to her in order for her to recover from what had happen. I think misunderstanding and miscommunication had led to this whole incident. Both party misunderstood one another. Since I’m with Roswina everyday, I knew what she had gone through and her true feelings. I know some people would view my blog and go do something. But I just want to let all of you know. If I dare to post all these up, I’m not afraid of anyone viewing this whole thing!!! This is my blog, and hello, don’t tell me I’m restricted of writing my feelings up here!!! If you’re not happy with anything regarding this, you can come look for me. I’m all the more willing to discuss the thing with ya, if not please don’t XXX behind my back.
Those of you not with Roswina everyday would not understand and see how she actually felt. You think she wants this to happen? She didn’t speak up everything that was on her mind, because she’s afraid the friendship would turn chaotic. But didn’t she know that it actually had lead to more miscommunication.
That day she actually wanted to tell Sandra what she felt and all these. However, over the sms, Sandra said that her day was crude. Hence, Roswina thought that she actually should talk about it the next time.
… But now Sandra knew about the whole thing before she could tell her. She was kinda of angry with Roswina. Ros, I really think you need to talk everything out with her, to avoid more communication. It’s up to her to make her decision then. If you don’t tell her about the whole thing, I think it’s unavoidable that she would be angry. She should have the right to know the whole thing right? If not, both of you will just kept things these ways. I know you do not want to end this relationship right? It’s absolutely obvious to everyone who knows of this incident. I don’t wanna see this friendship end too. I just hope that anyone of you who see this will make the first move in salvaging this friendship. Don’t just keep quiet and suffer in pain. Can or not? No one wanna see this. None of your friends wanna see this happen to you all… I really encourage you all to meet up some of these days and pour everything out.
Today just saw Sandra and friends @ the lift. But she kinda moved away from us. It really hurt Roswina you know? She wished you still treat her as your friend. But just because of the blog, an individual post, everything ended up this way. I saw Sandra lips saying ‘Asshole’ when she saw us. Hmm…Since I didn’t hear it, I think I should not jump into conclusion. Right? But I really hope what I saw from her mouth wasn’t that. If you really treasure this friendship, please do something to it!!! I just wanna make it clear another time, after the previous post I posted. Everything was bygones. I don’t feel anything against you. Its just that you didn’t join us for lunch and didn’t talk to us. So, I did not talk to you. I don’t know what to talk to ya about to. You can’t expect me to just walk over and say ‘ How are you 2day?’. Right? It would really be very awkward.
And Sandra, Roswina do treasure this friendship. Please don’t doubt her. Maybe you’re not aware of all these. But everyone around her knows how much she treasures the friendship. Example, if she doesn’t cherish you, she wouldn’t take the trouble to print notes for you, she won’t even feel anything when you just walked away from her.
This is what I wanna say, hope all things would turn out better. See ya!~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/13/2004 ♥
2day mOrning wake up kinda of late le... then so many things happen... eeeeeeeeee...
fri: move home!~ then pack my stuffs and do some housework. pack halfway fall aslp le... was too tired!~
sat: yanie's bday...went sentosa to celebrate wif her... i hate the beach so much... but she's my best fren. so went ~ keke... =) played 'monkey' and frisbies. after sentosa went back home to pack my room le... tired!!!! b4 go sentosa, went back d3arie's hse. coz he wanna take $$$ from his mama... then his mama asked why i wanna move back home. then actually i dunch wanna tell de... but d3arie go say bcoz of tat ger lor. then his mama asked me y... then i told her half of it la... coz there's too many things i hate her about!!!! tat i can't possibly finish, and we're rushing to go sentosa, coz we were very late! actually d3ar morning wanna go help up in his mama's stall de... but then the day b4 pack our stuff, then d3ar also very tired le. so morning cannot wake up on time.
(sun)yesterday: went kk's hse(d3arie's fren) burn Ragnarok stuff. then later go d3arie hse. wash fish tank and hamster cage. after tat went bugis shopping. coz d3arie juz got his NS pay!!!! wOooooottt!!!! I LUV SHOPPING... bOught a white skirt. d3arie bought a pants and t-shirt!!! kakaka.... spend around $50 (pants) + $15 (t-shirt). my skirt was $22. so total $87. and yesterday was jesslyn's bday. went Aranda country club at Pasir Ris... Woooo... sO high class!!!! jesslyn is 1 hot and pretty babe man! she is still still 1 now! wOooo... her bday got buffet also... the fooD wOooo... nice man!!!! many of her frens went too. i went wif d3ar, Meiting, and Julia... we enjoyed ourselves there... @ nite, wanna ask mama for my eZ link card. and wanna ask her if she needs me to help her buy the house neccessities. coz she's always saying she's too bz to buy and do housework. wanna tok to her, but she was on the phone. i asked her, but she didnt reply me...
this morning: woke up kinda of late le. need to ask my mama wake up, coz i need to get my eZ link card. she didn't wanna wake up to get it for me. Instead, she told me to go to her bag and get it myself. she told me where she put it. but hell, i cant find it. i'm already late and she didnt want to get it for me. it was her tat did not gif me a chance to tok 2 her the previous nite. kept hogging on the phone. then i asked her if i buyin the stuffs for her or she buy herself. then she say ask me to use my $ first. i buy le then she return me. so nvm, i told her to put the $ on the table, when i come back from sch tis evening, i will help her buy. then she didnt reply. juz continued slping. wat the heck... the other day during the weekend, i helped my sister wash her pants and jeans. coz she juz hung in the room for many days, and didnt wash them! i juz moved back to my hse, then i washed the clothes tat they dumped into the basket and her pants + jeans. then this morning, she said i washed her stuffs and didnt helped her iron. wtf? i'm already good enough to help her wash her pants and jeans. n now she expect me to iron them too? tat's really too much! i have my own stuffs to do man! i need to work in sch from 8:30 to 6pm everyday! and i need to wash the clothes and hang them for drying. i need to iron my clothes and my bf's clothes. now she wants me to iron hers? when she dunch allow me to use the com, always hogging to the computer and dunch let any1 else use. if she can b so free playin her online game the whole day, y can't she juz iron her own clothes? it doesn't make sense to me!!! i hate lazy pple!!! and i'm the 1 studyin, but i dun leave my books lying around. while my mother is the 1 that leave her books lying around, in the living room and the study room! shit man!!!! y do i always haf to do all tis shit... i'm bz too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wanna pack their stuffs, but how? how i noe wat they want to keep and wat they wanna throw... so they need to pack themselves wat. everytime i haf to act as if i'm a mother and nag at them!!!! yyyyyyyyyyy???? i share the same room as my sister, and she doesnt pack the room. i've juz moved back home, and i wipe, sweep and rearrange my room and change my bed sheets. my sister thinks i'm damn free!!!! BUT I'M NOT! i haf alot of projects to finish and need to go to sch everyday! need to do housework too. y isnt the other pple involve in doing the housework too!!!! SUX!!!!
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/10/2004 ♥
hmmm...yesterday juz chat wif ah bee (d3arie's c0usin)... hmm... always think tat he's a very nice guy. was quite touch by wat he say yesterday w0rx. c0z his bday same as me mah, on 0ct... so i asked him, h0w's he g0nna celebrate. then he ask me h0w i g0nna celebrate my bday... i say dunch noe... damn br0ke n0w. muz see h0w... then he say if he g0t $, ask my frens all this g0 out l0r and celebrate... but muz ask him g0 too, c0z he paying~ hmm... i n0e him n0t m0re than 1 1/2 year nia. but he very gd sia. he n0t th0se pple hu ke ga0 $ de. anyway, shy leh...dun wanna take pple $ w0rx. s0 i t0ld him nvm la, see h0w... keke... =)
then tis m0rning juz saw tat stupid ger... i hate to see her. whenever i see her my mood really bec0me farking shit man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then later juz sh0w dear attitude. but I DUN CARE!!!!!! if everyday muz see the bloody ger, i might as well m0ve h0me! y make myself unhappy by seeing that ger~ I WANNA GO HOME!!! I planning to pack my stuff h0me by 2nite bah. his hse is n0t my hse, i think its time me to g0 h0me~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/07/2004 ♥
hMmm.... nOt feeling ok 2day lehx... my stomach keep ache worx!!! =( everytime lyk tat...since yesterday in sch also lyk tat... but when go home then ok le... but now pain again!!!! hai~
i currently in sch, staring at the toopid com...got nothin 2 do... tat's y decided to blog norhx.
anyway, got so irritated wif d3arie tis m0rning!~ i really find tat he couldn't understand me. there's always a gap in between us... the things tat we tok about are always different. we haf different personality and thinking... i really think it's hard for us to be 2gether... hmm, dunch noe wat shld i do now...
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]
9/03/2004 ♥
Woooot.... frm now onwards no need to go work/sch on sat le!!! wOooot... finally it offically started...kakaka. 1 happy thing after so long...
wed went to watch anaconda wif d3arie...not bad... was quite a nice show... but the show quite short worx... lyk only 90 mins... was suppose to go watch the movie wif d3arie, sandra and roswina de...but end up only me and d3arie watch nia... we planned this whole thing afew days ago. every1 agreed. so on wed, we were all ready to go watch the movie after sch. but in the morning, sandra asked me why i didnt ask reagan along... then i told her, coz my bf say if reagan going, then he dunch wanna go... then i told him ok le... since he already say tat out le, i cant possibly asked reagan to go rite... some more it was already agreed on the 4 of us going nia... then y suddenly last minute morning ask me this kinda of thing? then d3arie already on his outfit for outing le, then cant tell him not to go rite? if they say earlier, i could haf told d3arie tat i will be going without him. then after i told sandra about tat, she say ok... but in the afternoon, reagan told me tat he will be going wif us to the movie. sandra invited him to go... since reagan is goin, then i roswina, its ok, the 3 of them can go 2gether... my bf and i can go on our own. its not tat i dunch want reagan to go... sometimes even my bf is there, reagan would be invited too...but tis time, my bf already ask me le... so how? i'm actually fine wif it... but i juz dunch understand y she still go invite reagan to go after i told her about it... -_-!!! nvm... then later after sch, we went to the shopping arcade to wait for her... ( coz she attach there, then she knock off 30 mins later then us)... when we go look for her, she was outside her shop, then she was toking to some of our frens... when she see us, she juz asked if we were waiting for her... it's quite obvious... isnt it? then later she juz walked away, without telling me and roswina anything... then later reagan told us tat she's not going for the movie... i could see tat roswina was kinda of sad, then she wanna leave le... so i juz say ' dunch noe wat u all want'... then i also left wif her... terrence call me and ask me why... i juz told him tat nothing, i juz need to go... coz i meet d3arie @ novena mrt le, and i need to rush le... i m wandering, y cant sandra juz tell us directly. y did she need to tell reagan to let us noe... ain't we her frens too? and we were the 1 tat organised tat outing, yet she dunch wanna go and she didnt tell us... haf she tot of how we would feel?
thurs i didnt go to sch... coz i couldnt wake up on time...
2day: sandra didnt come to sch... i wanted to tok to her about wat happen... i tot tat we should let her noe y we were angry wif her the other day... since i regard her as my fren, i think i should juz let her noe... if we were juz to be angry wif her and keep quiet, she will nv noe wat she did wrong, she will nv noe y we were angry wif her... if tat's her nature and i noe she cant change, then i will let her b... but i can see this is juz a minor problem, and after telling her the problem, i noe she can change....if she wasn't my fren, i will juz bitch behind her and won't let her noe rite... and everytime when she do something wrong, we'll juz bitch about her... but NO, we r frens, we should let her noe so she can change... sometimes, pple do things tat hurt pple. but they wouldnt realise... sometimes pple need to be reminded. we need to help the pple around us, the frens around us by reminding them... not juz keep quiet... its up to them if they wanna accept it or not... if some1 noes tat they are in the wrong, they would change for the better. if the person cannot accept pple telling him/her tat he/she had done something wrong, then i think u shld noe wat kinda of person he/she is already...rite? sometimes when things happen, its not for ya to juz sweep under the carpet... if u juz keep quiet and act as if nothing had happen, i think i'm juz not being true to myself and tat fren... y muz we put a mask and act as if nothin had happen... its ok for us to forgif and forget, but if the problem is not even solve then how is it suppose to be forgiven and forgotten? its ok for us to compromise and keep quite... but i think if things accumulate, it will add up to a even bigger pile... and the nxt time when u all quarrel or if there's a problem, things will juz explode...it would be even more worst... i think sometimes, pple need to be more sensitive with the pple around them... they're not they only 1 living in the universe... we muz gif and take... roswina and reagan think tat i should not tell sandra... everything would be ok... since they think tis is the better way, i shall juz follow wat they say... since roswina can take the pain tat a good fren had cause, y not me... when i'm not tat close to her... its totally alrite wif me... after tis post,everything is the past... we'll not rack it up again...
every1 in life has their own problems...every living creatures in this universe encounter problems... coz every1 is imperfect... we are all living in a world full of mixed feelings/emotions... everything seems complicated... but through it we will learn to be a stronger person... dunch say tat u haf problems and pple dunch understand u... i telling u all too, i haf problems tat u cant understand too... so dunch complain wat u are going through now... its not the matter of u going through a problem. the most important thing is how u are going to stand up when u encounter a problem... some pple juz fall and can't pick themselves up... but some pple become even stronger after everything... dunch cripple urself at the situation u are in now... and avoiding isnt the best solution...
aww tat's all i wanna say... c yaz all~
you are the only reason for my precious smile ♥ [::+ ♥ xiaOm1n ♥ +::]