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DA GIRL ♥

Jasmine ♥
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04 Oct
Short
Skinny
Long black and brownish hair
Small eyes
Big Nose
Simply Ugly
Attitude
Narcissistic
Capricious
Extrovert
Sensitive
Cynical
Canossa Convent Primary
Saint Anthony Canossian Convent
NYP Finance Services(Graduated)
SIM - Banking and Finance (Part time UOL)


[一个人生活]


Total Visits since 01 Mar 2009:




MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

HER LURFES ♥

HIM ; Lawrence aka Fatty Tan ♥
Shopping
Dolling Up
KTV
Singing
Travelling
Taking pictures
Listening to Music
Chill out
Sleeping
Slacking
Friends: Sharon, Julia, Bei boy, Jasmine Tan, Linda, Ah An, Clara, Neth, Roswina, Max, Pal, Suriani, Jenny bf, Reagan, Yashi, Jiang Hao, Jeffrey, Sandy, Sze Ping, Elaine, Lay Eng, Celine, Jessie, Annie
Family
 My bday(04 Oct; pressie please!)
Valentine(14 Feb)
Pink
White
 Drinks: Jasmine Green Tea, Coke, Red Bull, Lemon Tea, Mango Juice
Fruits: Mango, Honey Dew, Grapes, Apple, Strawberries, Banana, Guava with LOTS oF Pulm Powder
Food: bEef stEak, ScallOp, crAb, lObster, PraWn, chEese fRies, Salted Popcorn with LOTS of Butter, Cup corn with LOTS oF Butter, MOS Burger, Minestrone Soup, Teriyaki Chicken burger, KFC Drumsticks, Long John, Onion Ring
Snacks: KinDer bReunO, Super Ring, Lays


HATES
Red Beans/Green Beans
PaPaya
WaterMelon
Root Beer
Hor Fun
Loh Mee
Bastards & Flirts
Bitches & Sluts
Attention Seekers
Childishness
Egoistic, Arrogant, Supercilious People
Attitude Problem
Myself







HER WANTS ♥

mOi wiSh LisT

-more dresses, more skirts, more tops-
-LV Damier Neverfull and Chanel Bag-
-$$$ and more $$$-
-IPL legs and hands-
-Go DRX Clinic-
-repair aircon-
-renovate room-
-Travel to Australia, US, Europe and Japan. Go Taiwan again-


New Resolution:

1) Learn to cook
2) Punctual
3) Sleep early
4) Exercise
5) Save up
6) Bring mummy and sister out more often
7) Slim down
8) Complete my degree



HER MEMORIES ♥

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人生就是为了找寻爱的过程，每个人的人生都要找到四个人。 第一个是自己, 第二个是你最爱的人， 第三个是最爱你的人， 第四个是共度一生的人. 首先会遇到你最爱的人，然後体会到爱的感觉； 因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人； 当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的， 也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。 但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人； 你最爱的，往往没有选择你； 最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的； 而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的， 只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。 你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？ 没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你， 可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了， 他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你； 同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你 。 当一个人不爱你要离开你， 你要问自己还爱不爱他， 如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开； 如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐， 希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止， 你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了， 而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？ 爱不是占有， 你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里， 但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。 换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有， 让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆， 如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子─爱他的好，也爱他的坏： 爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点， 绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子， 万一变不成就不爱他了。 真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的， 你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪著你； 真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。 毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得； 分开是一种必然的考验， 如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输， 真爱是不会变成怨恨的。 两人在谈情说爱的时候， 最喜欢叫对方发誓，许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓， 就是因为我们不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人， 而这些山盟海誓又很不切实际： 海枯石烂、地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱! 明知道海不会枯、石不会烂、地不会老、天不会荒； 就算会，也活不到那时候。 许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言， 最好是承诺做不到的事， 反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧， 请记住：”不可能实现的诺言最动人” 在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套； 讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。 你呢？找到了第几个？ 茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？

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CREDITS ♥

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brushes- XXX
hosts- XX
fonts- X

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4/30/2008 ♥



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4/27/2008 ♥

still my favourite song :

你说的话
在我心中生了根
爱得很深
所以心很疼

记忆
在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨

只怕再问对
彼此都太残忍
我能感觉
另外一个人

我等
等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候
比较真

太多疑问 知道答案又如何
原来容忍 不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开
也看不见未
来难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Du_GcdzDukY&feature=en

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Baby Lervonne


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4/26/2008 ♥











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waiting for movie



in crew room
 in crew room

my very blur face



my hair is very long already



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Friday:

After work rushed home to take a shower then cabbed over to Taka to meet my girls Sharon and Julia for dinner at Mos burger.
Wished we had more time together, but Julia darling have to go back home because she has to work in the morning.

Anyway, I met up the rest of rL7 and friends at Crew Room (KTV Pub behind Mr Bean). They booked the private ktv room at 3rd storey. Erm, didn't sang much though.

After which, left for a movie - Doomsday.

then home at 4am.

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I think this show is totally crap.
Waste time...
I suppose it to be some virus infecting the country type of show.
but it turn out to be a combination of many shows?
okay.
tell you in details. so you might understand clearer on what i meant.

yes, there was a virus. the government of that country built a wall and only the military was allowed in the safety zone. the rest of the country were left to fend themselves and die.
oh ya, the main actress was one of the little girl they took in out of sympathy. she became a very good secret agent? that fights for the country.

many years later, this virus hit on the next country.
the prime minister and its people had been watching over the country which were once infected with the virus. they realized that there were some survivors there with a doctor who might have found an anti-virus.
the main actress was appointed to go over the other side of the wall with her team to track down the anti-virus.

this part is where the crap starts.
when she reach there, their tank was being obstructed by many many cows at the path way.
why didn't the cows die of virus?
finally they found the hospital which the doctor used to work at. they thought there might be some clues there.
well, then they were attacked by some group of punks. hundreds of them who tried to kill them.
erm, why didn't they die? and even so, there shouldn't be food left. why ain't they killing one another?
anyway, the team and the main actress were caught, some died already while fighting.
main actress was locked up. one guy was used to feed the HUNDREDS of them.
like how? one person to feed so many people?
and why didn't they even think of eating the cows first?
before they even kill the person, they have CONCERT? Pole dancing with women wearing gstrings and get smack on their ass? WTF?

Anyway, the main actress managed to escape. She fled with another lock up who claims that she is the doctor's daughter and could help her find him.
so they ran out together... and met up with the other two members who managed to escape the punks and wasn't caught by them.
then this girl had another friend who helped them escape by a TRAIN.
the punks tried to chase them but failed.

okay the train reach another destination.
OMG. its like LORD OF THE RING ok! I mean with castle, king, warriors and horses.
WTF? A very new era type of show then turn to ancient times?
Then later they were being attacked again.
Argghhh...
they fought and fought and fled.

okay at the castle they found a warehouse which kept many things.
they managed to find a CAR.
they drove off.
halfway on the road, they met the punksters again.

the CAR they found was a 5litre car okay, if you know , you should know its suppose to be very fast!
and the punkster were driving a lousy police car and motors.
they managed to catch up with a 5litre car?
WTF?

okay, anyway its too crappy, cut the stupid details.
the government send a helicopter to pick up the anti-virus from them. too bad there wasn't any.
the prime minister was infected and died (killed himself) because someone tried to save him by shooting on a infected guy whose blood splashed on him and his mouth

the main actress did not return with the helicopter.
she ended up bringing the head of the punk's chief to the place where she found the whole group of them (which is the hospital).
she ended up JOINING the gang.
and i assume she became the LAO DA (chief).

well... i think she might have thought, since there wasn't any cure, might as well go back to a place where these people had survived the virus.
or maybe she like to do dirty dancing at the concert?
LOL

totally clueless what the whole story is about.
its a combination of SWAT (the team), Lord of the Rings (the other side of the wall), Tomb Raider (the main actress), Fast and Furious? (the car and police car chasing), etc etc
what show have Gothic / punkster and dirty dancing? erm. i dont know...

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4/25/2008 ♥

2nd sister will be coming back from Taiwan on Sunday. Going back to Taiwan again on Wednesday....

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Had Soup Spoon with Wanting today for lunch. She passed me my Facial Products from Enyouth. Chatted as usual. She said I've slimmed down ALOT ALOT and I'm super skinny. And HOW??????????? I wanna gain back some weight.

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4/23/2008 ♥




Landy Wen Lan: 傻瓜

其實他做的壞事我們都懂
沒有什麼不同　眼光閃爍
曖昧流動　閉上眼當作聽說

＊其實別人的招數我們都懂
沒有什麼不同　故作軟弱
撒嬌害羞　只是有一點彆扭

＃傻瓜也許單純得多　愛得沒那麼做作
愛上了我不保留

＋傻瓜　我們都一樣　被愛情傷了又傷
相信這個他不一樣　卻又再一次受傷
傻瓜　我們都一樣　受了傷卻不投降
相信付出會有代價　代價只是一句傻瓜


1day,when ♥ eventually becomes hurt & hatred; there'll be nothin left to reminisce

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4/21/2008 ♥

i know i've been blogging alot about him the past two years...

there are happiness though.
but...
so much tears
so much sorrows

we'll be blogging still...

but.

let 25 April be the last day I'll be blogging on him...

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爱在记忆中找你-林峰

我对你 这一生 哪个可比
我与你 差一些 永远一起
邂逅时间场地 似连场好戏
要自何页说起
爱太重 深呼吸 欠缺空气
爱太美 轻轻的 却载不起
爱情来到时候 似明媚天气
它走了 突然聚变雪落雨飞
如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你 还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

你太远 该怎么 说对不起
你太近 一转身 却已高飞
快乐也许太短 似场流星雨
一眨眼 就如幻觉怕又记起
如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你 还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

如果可以恨你 全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非要放下你 还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

我情愿我狠心憎你
我还在记忆中找你

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This week:

-Alice birthday at ktv pub, Ah Neh bday at M hotel J Bar, then St James
- df
- Concert at Esplanade - We will rock you





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4/19/2008 ♥

教室裡那台風琴叮咚叮咚叮嚀
像你告白的聲音 動作一直很輕
微笑看你送完信 轉身離開的背影
喜歡你字跡清秀的關心

那溫熱的牛奶瓶在我手中握緊
有你在的地方 我總感覺很窩心
日子像旋轉木馬 在腦海裡轉不停
出現那些你對我好的場景

你說過牽了手就算約定
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像來不及許願的流星
再怎麼美麗也只能是曾經

太美的承諾因為太年輕
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像是精靈住錯了森林
那愛情錯的很透明

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whats the fundamental of a relationship / love?
everyone have different views and expectation i would say.
personally for me. its merely TRUST and of cos COMMUNICATION

why do people lie?
they lie to cover their tracks
they lie to prove their 'innocence'
lies will never stop.
they continue. because you keep finding new ones to cover the previous ones.

but have you ever thought about why do you have to lie in the first place?
there's something you cant share with your partner?
1) is it because you have done something wrong?
or
2) is there a barrier between the both of you thats why there are certain things which you do not want to open up?

everyone do lie.
like i've said.
selectively.
we don't lie to people we love.
to PROTECT them.
because even white lies hurt.
because eventually when the truth is unveil
it hurts even more.
reality hurts, but it hurts more to see someone you love lying to you.

i've promised not to talk about the previous lies.
but i'm sorry.
because it has all accumulated into how much i distrust you now.
and i'm giving you a chance to confess, to admit.
but i'm disappointed because you never admit your mistakes.
you've never realize it was your fault.

but will someone really change?
you never know because its a risk
you never know till you give another chance to the relationship and try
but trying would also means overlooking the lies, the mistakes made
and yet giving another chance to get hurt once again

guys will only admit their mistakes when they're caught right on the spot with your presence.
and they are sorry and they love you, only when they're caught.

the 2nd most important factor - communication.

how much do we communicate? interact?
how often do we share with one another about the things that happened daily?
about the obstacles we face at work, or in other areas.
sometimes it wouldn't help even so you share with me.
but at least i'm your girlfriend, the least i can do is lend a listening ear.
relationship is not about the good times we spend together; but also the bad times.
this is how relationship grows into a deeper level.
and at least if you share about how hard you're struggling there, and if i'm aware about it, i wouldnt blame you or feel unfair if you were to show me bad attitude at times.

in conclusion. if the two simple basis doesn't exist. how are we suppose to last in this kinda of relationship?

i expect that you don't have time for me because you're busy at work and tired to talk; not because you're busy entertaining and having fun with your friends.

sometimes i wonder...
am i really wrong when i complain about you going out very often till very late?
am i really asking for too much?

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4/17/2008 ♥












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4/16/2008 ♥


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normy's audition

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4/15/2008 ♥

Ah Tong called this afternoon and told me that he's going back to Taiwan like beginning of next month. =(

think the whole chup lao will miss out alot of fun and laughter without him around. will definitely miss Ah Tong! or maybe Chup Lao can organize to have a trip to Taiwan. hee :D

anyway after work came home. msn for alittle while then message Ah Tong to ask where he at. He just finish his dinner with the rest of them. So I went downstairs to get some fruits and prepared chocolate fondue. Invited them up for fondue session. Ah Tong, Ah Boon, Pigu, Ah Kuan and Ah How.

Chat while having fondue. As usual full of laughter :) They just left awhile ago. I think I'm going to watch dvd because Annie just lend me afew of them.

Logging off~ tata

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Make up can really do wonders...

http://tw.myblog.yahoo.com/amily-marco/article?mid=4020&prev=4023&l=a&fid=6

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4/14/2008 ♥



说着让人伤心的话你还是温柔
忽然感觉一切都是如此的荒谬
当夜色慢慢落成一片漆黑在你背后
当我说出你最想要的分手

你也有你的好对我来说却不够
而我的青春不该只是等着你回头
做你的情人不如做你最好的朋友
最后给你的爱是你想要的自由

爱的代价 有苦有乐
这一次啊
对爱有多些了解
虽然要把苦与痛都忘记
要经过好久
我不怪不愿你
爱也曾经美丽

爱的代价 我付出了
放你去吧
对爱有多些了解
一定有个人会在这世界
只为我等候
看天空是那么宽
不再低着头的我要往前走

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sick again
having sore eyes and cough.
=(
damnit. arghh

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常常看他写要找一个爱他比爱自己多的人，

他会很珍惜，很爱她，应为他曾经不珍惜已失去过。

可是现在没把手握紧的，没珍惜的却是他。

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4/13/2008 ♥

one last thing before i log off and get to bed.

CONGRATS NORMY for getting into top 16 super band. will be on tv very soon. all the best.

-min your number 1 fan. haha.-




smiles :)

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feeling extremely sian now. because its going to be MONDAY tomorrow... =(

updates throughout the week:

- sign up for IPL for lips. paid $180 already. total cost should be $480.
- rouge crocodile
- dinner at jumbo
- st james for 2 nights. yesterday stay there until lights up then went out till 11am.
- met up with neth neth and wei for dinner. didnt see wei for a long time. then we went to pick clara from work.

today is 13th.
still got 10 more days to pay day.
12 more days to another 25th April. a day i always will remember
26 more days to our bkk trip supposingly.

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my arm after taking blood test. the blue blacks. min hates blood and needles because it just remind me of hospital the other time.

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why is min always so unhappy nowadays?
why are things never gonna be the same again.
min use to be so cheerful and carrying that smile of hers.
but why.
why am I always crying nowadays?

i kept thinking and asking myself.
why can't I be happy.

maybe I can't handle stress?

maybe I don't wanna grow up and start facing reality myself? Start making decision myself. start slogging at work for my own expenses. Start facing alot of problems myself.
when I get older, my family no longer spoon feed me with everything I want.
and they are always not at home.
I'm always always alone.
yes, I have lots of friends and I go out very often.
but I still feel very empty
feel that something is missing.

maybe I'm no longer that optimistic.

maybe I'm getting more and more emo.
little things make me cry.
and when I'm unhappy.
I cry and cry non stop.

Theres too much things around me that makes me feel so cynical about life.
really too many things.

why do people always have to lie?
why are there betrayal?
why do guys always have to lie to their girlfriend even when they are together most of the days? why do guys always make the same mistakes?
someone told me "when someone's character is like that. he will never change. even if he do, it will never last. when guys really want to change, they change for themselves and never for their partner. and even so when you're at the same place, you can never be sure that the same things will never happen again because leopard never changes its spot".
the phrase leopard never changes its spots is really true?
everyone. every marriage, every relationship I see is broken.
why?
it makes me fear of marriage so much. fear of relationship so much.
i don't know what this world is becoming.
its so complex. full of lust, betrayal, lies and unhappiness...

little things really make me cry.
i don't know why.
maybe i really think alot.
be it something frivolous or not.

i appreciate my daddy for buying dinner for me today before he head out to meet his friends.
but when i open that packet of rice.
i feel like crying.
because i realize even my dad don't know what i like and dislike to eat.
23 years. my parents don't even know what i eat and don't eat.
one of the dish daddy bought is chicken meat with bones. i never like to eat meat with bones. it really turn off my appetite.
i really hate to eat hor fun and loh mee.
even my close friends know it.
but sometimes mummy ask if i wanna eat them. i feel frustrated.
i only stay whampoa for approximately 2 years.
but mummy jessie knows what i like and dislike to eat.
because she always buy me my favourite food and cook me my favourite dishes.
and i really do appreciate her alot.
at her place, she would talk to me and i don't feel so lonely like now when i'm home.

i dont even remember hw long my 2nd sister had been in taiwan. i don't even remember because i rarely communicate with them even if they're here in sg.
its 9:15pm. no one is at home yet.
i call mummy, no answer. no call backs.
i dont even know where are they.
just like him. i never knew where he was.
it feels like these people don't exist sometimes because its so seldom they appear in my life even though they are the closest already...

over the weekends, i had been going out till very late.
i didnt want to stay at home to look at the computer.
because this is where i always look for him.
when i miss him i look at his pics on my com.
when i miss him i stare blankly at my msn for him to be online.
so... when i'm out i don't have to face the computer.

even so i've initiated the breakup. i'm still very very upset.
all i can do now is tell myself not to think about it. it'll be easier that way...

"I know you have been stress at work.
so do I.
Who isn't stress at work?

but why do you have to be so selfish.
when I've already voice out my unhappiness regarding you always going out.
and going out till very very late.
I really do not want to tie you down, or not giving you freedom.
but don't you feel you're over doing it?

adding on to my unhappiness and doubts after hearing things.
you didn't do anything about it to help me gain trust in you.
on the other hand, you're making it far worse.
doing things that make me doubt even more.

there are many things which i've already heard of long ago.
but i told myself that i should trust you
and not mention anything to you about what i heard

but recently you are neglecting me alot and doing unsual things
and going out EVERYDAY and for long hours.
i really don't know where are you.
you are almost uncontactable.
i cant reach you by phone bcos you always don't pick up calls
i msg you, but you don't reply or you take very very long to.
i really don't know what you're doing. really
and i'm always thinking and i'm fearful every time.
fear that i will lose you eventually and i think i already have.

you say its just a restaurant. but why can you spend HOURS at there drinking?
i really don't understand what is so fun there when its just normal restaurant.
and why would normal and decent / high class disco open till late hours for you?
i really don't know whats there and hows the life style there.
all i know is hearing and seeing things with my eyes.
you always say you're suffering at phil
but i really don't feel so when you're always going out and enjoying yourself.
like almost EVERYDAY.
why?
i just feel that phil is so exciting and fun for you
that i've lost a boyfriend.
its really sad.

even today. i tried to give you another chance
by believing that you will really go home before 6am like you've said.
but in the end, you broke the trust again.

and you know lawrence. you know i'm very upset and insecure already.
but you chose to ignore my feelings and go ahead with what you want to do.
you say you love me. do you really really do?
when all i get from you is bad attitude and neglect.
you even lock yourself up from me.
treat me like a stranger. not sharing things with me.

love is not like that.
love is not about spending the good times together. but even the bad times too.
you're stress working there.
i really dont mind giving up everything to be with you there.
to slog together at work for a future together.
i really do hope so.

but...
how long do you want me to give in to you?
how long do you want me to endure you?
i've really did my best.
did my best to understand you and to tolerate with you and your very bad attitude.
i'm waiting for you.
but is it worth it when all you do is treat me like this?

have you really spare thoughts for me?
i always ask myself if you're really serious.
if you really love me like how i love you.
i really want to be with you as long as we could.
don't mind giving up everything i have. EVERYTHING to be there with you.
so long we don't have any more misunderstanding, doubts and quarrels anymore.
as long as we can be happy together.

while waiting for you.
i really feel very insecure plus the things i've heard about.
why won't you feel anything about how sad i'll be.
why won't you learn to protect me from all the unhappiness
and the struggle i'm going through here alone.

after thinking for a long time.
i thought maybe you really dont need me.
maybe i'm really not the one you want to spend your life with.
i'm not as important to you like you are to me...
so. i thought letting go is the best way for you.
so you could have unlimited freedom without me by your side.

i really hope you will find a girlfriend who can understand you.
love you like how i do.
give you the freedom like how you want.
giving in to you when you ignore her feelings and enduring your bad attitude.
i hope there will be a better one for you ya.
take care.
loving you always.

-min-"

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Caught Rouge Crocodile.

This show is lousy. Its a low production movie from what I perceive. Its very lame and it seems more like animal discovery channel to me.

When tourist visit that country, this long river is one of the hot spots they will visit. On this river, there are lots of crocs. They will pay for a ride on a very small boat which I personally feel is very unsafe to be on that kinda of boat to go for crocs viewing. Maybe they are dumb?


This very unfortunate group of people got on the boat where they met up with a gigantic crocs who managed to over turn their boat. They were trap on a piece of land and when the night comes, the land gets flooded because of high tight. And so they were trying to get over to another piece of land which they assume will be safe.

Throughout the show, one by one they get killed while trying to cross over to the other side. And who knows, the 'safe' place was the hiding place of that particular croc. The lead actor fought the gigantic croc and managed to kill it.

Thats about it. haha. It almost bore me to death. Really wanted to leave the cinema halfway through the show. Would rather go home for a nice sleep...

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black pepper crab, cereal prawn, satay and shark fin for dinner.
min min favourite. shark fin


min at jumbo
in the car
in the car

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